I surf around and I'm constantly drawn to pictures of happy couples. Whether or not I'm subconsciously drawn to them or not, I don't know.

I was once that happy, happy to wake up next to the man of my (then) dreams. He was everything to me and it just amazes me at how today, he means nothing at all. Well ok, that's not entirely true as I suppose he'll always be in my memories.

He was a gorgeous man who I loved with all my heart, but the timing wasn't right and I had to end what would have soon become a marriage. A marriage at a tender 21 years old? Although I've always been told my mentality is way beyond my physical age, there are still parts of my "maturity" that I believe to be extremely young. And that, caused me to spiral into the unknown. But haven't you heard before? That life is only worth living if it's lived in the unknown? To wake up everyday to something different and amazing in big or even small impacting ways? I believe that.

And after all is said and done....are we all not just looking for something to believe in?

Perhaps when I find someone to once again hold hands with and gaze into each others eyes and see a happily ever after fairytale I'll believe that love conquers all. But for now, love is for the weak.

It's funny, I honestly never imagined myself saying anything remotely negative or cynical about love. But what doesn't kill you, really does make you stronger. I've had my fair share of hits from love and now, my time is to be lived for me because one day, I'll be giving everything I am to someone I believe in.

I see young love, comfortable love, welded love and fake love all around me....all the time. But who's judging? Not me. I'm in no position to judge, it's only going to be a matter of time before the next Mr.Right-now comes along. And until then....judgment is at bay.